time for a new year

yes blog world, i have finally returned. i saw that k wrote up her new years resolutions and i figured that maybe if i actually wrote them down here that it may help me to stick to at least one or two. :) i know i always make such big plans for the year, and basically just end up reverting back to old habits, regardless of my goals. however, this year i hope that i can finally do something good with my life.

while i love my family, spending these last few weeks with them has really made me want to work extra hard to find a job within the next few months for after graduation. i really wish that it was as easy as handing an employer my unc diploma, but i know that really to most companies, that means nothing. the only thing i am really scared about is my lack of experience in what i really want to do. for once, i ACTUALLY know what i want to do with my life, which is going into the publishing world. i guess i should have attempted to figure this out BEFORE my last semester of college, but i say better late than never. the only problem is that for basically every job out there, i need work experience in the publishing field. while moving up to new york city and getting a job would be amazing and my dream come true, i have this haunting feeling that i will be stuck either in chapel hill or charlotte after i graduate. i really want to be the first daughter to get out of this place. however, i know i am not that lucky and so most of this semester will be constantly dedicated to revising my resume, writing cover letters, getting recommendations, and applying to jobs. i hope that doesn't hurt my grades, although i have a feeling it might get in the way of my social life.

alright, after that long ramble, i guess i can finally start my list of resolutions:

• find a job in the publishing field (even if it is an internship).
• stay in shape, complete p90x with k and s.
• get down to my target weight and stay there.
• learn to cook a variety of meals.
• drink more water, less soda.
• broaden my musical horizons.
• have more girl's nights.
• laugh more, get mad less.
• have PATIENCE.
• be a little more emotional, but not overly emotional.
• be happy.
• tell people, some in particular, how i feel before it is too late.
• read more classics, less chick-lit (although it is too good to pass up!).
• take more pictures to capture memories of my last college semester.
• take a road trip to a new place.
• don't go to bed mad.

wow, what a list. guess i will be busy! and of course, i would love to write in this blog more and attempt to keep in touch with more people. however, i know myself and i will quickly get wrapped back up in school and the college life and most likely stop blogging. nonetheless, it would be nice to write every once in a while, maybe once a week. and as far as keeping in touch with friends, i know i am really bad at that. i guess i should work on that then eh? somehow it is easier for me to keep in touch with boys than girls, maybe because i am more comfortable around boys? who knows. we don't even need to go into boy drama. :)

and with l and p's wedding later this year i am sure to be busy, busy, busy with wedding details! i can't wait to help pick out the dress and all those girly things. i just hope i have enough money to be traveling back and forth from chapel hill to charlotte!

so there are my resolutions blogger world. here's to a new year and hopefully at this time next year i can say i succeeded in keeping some of my resolutions!

all we ever do is say goodbye,

m.